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I remember when I was happy to get my helix piercing...
the first few months were blisss... how naive was I?
I cross my fingers hope it's not infected. I snagged it a week ago and then snagged it again when I was using a scrunchie to pull back my wet hair after the shower. Ah, a scrunchie. Nothing is safe.
I wonder if it happened when my boyfriend banged against my ear accidently when he walked by when I was grabbing something at work in the cooler. That was a few days ago.
Or just a culmination of all those things.
I thought it would be easy to heal, like my conch piercings. I was wrong; everyone else was right. helix piercings are a pain. No, I'm not in pain, but my piercing is definitely in a situation right now. Not sure exactly what the situation is. It's swollen and weepy... ah, how is it going to heal if I keep snagging it on things????
Tonight, I'm thinking that... when I go to see my piercer in... a few weeks to get my left conch resized, I'm considering telling her that I'm going to take it out if it's not improved by then. I don't even really like it that much.
Honestly, it doesn't bother me much, but looking at it freaks me out a little because I'm just like, what if? what if? the overthinker in me.
I try to avoid the doctor as much as I can because I like to have money.
I bought socks and leg warmers from sock dreams (a sock brand), and they were right. the socks are a dream. practically perfect in every way, as mary poppins would say.
I can buy socks anywhere but not socks that go way over the knee or long leg warmers. I own more skirts than pants so it's a nice way to keep my legs cozy in the winter. It's funny because when I was young, I used to dislike wearing shorts or skirts but now I am all about it. skirts just make sense. pants are nice but can never beat skirts in the comfort department.
Recently my legs have been irritated (itching at night). At first it was just the tops of my feet/ankles but now it has spread slightly (but honestly I believe that the more you itch, the worse it gets. the important thing is not to itch your skin and I think that helps a lot.) I developed dermatitis from my job on my hands and I own a couple arm warmers/half finger gloves that I wear after putting on lotion and now my hands are basically healed. Dunno if the itchiness on my legs is caused by cat hair (I'm allergic), the dry weather/hot showers, or from shaving, or all three, but I'm definitely going to wear some leg warmers to bed because it always helps me from not itching my skin.
alec and I went to burgerfi today and he saw his best friend who just got back from hawaii. they went to a mac ayres concert there. they said they ate a lot of delicious food (i bet, the food is great! in hawaii!)
my coworker moved there, and I get to see all her posts all the time... I went to maui for 5 days one time, best 5 days I've ever spent.
on the 17th I'm bringing my car to the auto shop to get it fixed from the hit and run that happened to me. at the beginning of the year my old coworker got accidently rearended by a police officer. she gets a new car! i'm glad she was okay though, she just got ACL surgery before that happened. yesterday they closed off a busy road all day here, tudor road and lake otis pkwy. there was a fatal officer involved shooting. the officer killed a man on tudor who had been reported by over a dozen callers to be holding a gun near the road. one caller reported that he had pointed the gun straight at them. dunno if it validates shooting him but i'm glad no bystanders were harmed.it sounds like it was a homeless native man. I would also be very concerned if a stranger was pointing a gun at me. Imagine if I or someone I knew happened to be walking on the sidewalk and walked past him? this is the second person to be killed on that road this year. earlier in the month a person shot someone at the native hospital (just an injury), near the university park trail system. the person said a stranger yelled for help and when they walked over he shot multiple rounds at them and their companion.
my hit and run happened on Jan 10 and after I called 3-1-1 an officer responded an hour later, at 1 am. at 9 pm that night there had been a fatal semi crash on the highway and the officer looked really tired. it makes my hit and run seem like not a big deal (which it wasn't.)
I dunno if I wrote about this before but I only have to pay $250 of my deductible on the $6,000 damages because they were able to track down the driver and they were uninsured.
my brother, patrick and sister-in-law sara are also coming up here for my cousin's wedding. they're arriving on the 17th. my other brother michael should be coming here too but i'm not sure when. i'm not totally sure if my sister maureen is coming because she's supposed to give birth this month. my other sister christine and her husband are coming here as well. of course, my cousin's sister and her kids are too. all these people are people I haven't seen in a while, some years, like pat and mike. i'm excited because alec has never met pat or met any of my nephews/nieces yet.
sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get married. my boyfriend and I have been dating for, coming up now, 5 years. his cousin has been dating his girlfriend for 3 years I believe, and he proposed to her a few days ago. I don't think he would have if he wasn't going to join the military soon though. my coworkers have been getting married too. some of them haven't though, like one of my coworkers who work together and have been dating for over 7 years. my manager is a little over 40 and has a girlfriend but hasn't gotten married. i believe my other manager hasn't officially gotten married but has been with his girlfriend so long the state acknowledges them as married. it's called common law marriage and I'm not sure about this story actually because it is only recognized in 7 states, so maybe they are married and I never heard about it.
my sister got married before she gave birth to her baby (the nurses were almost about to fight with her about it because they didn't believe her until she proved it to them).
I'm not sure if my other sister is married but she's on her fourth child with him so I'm assuming they did and I don't know when.
I still feel so young, like I haven't done much and there are still a million things to do. I just thought that when I got married that I would be secure in life. Actually, I never imagined myself getting married. historically marriages in my family have never been very happy. one of my sister's got divorced when I was 16. my mom was divorced, my grandma, my brother, even alec's sister has been divorced twice. my uncle, like five or six times (but he's been happily married now for a long time now) as well as my great-uncle (some resulted in him being widowed though.)
my great-aunt has a really amazing story though. she got pregnant when she was 16 and got married to her high school sweetheart. they had four children (two tragically died, one from aids and one from hypothermia), and they have been married ever since. they're in their 80s now and still live in the same house they bought when they moved here, I believe before the 80s.
my brother met his future wife while he was in college, around the early 2000s. they had a mutual friend and he originally talked to her online and long distance until he finally met her in person. she eventually moved here to live with him while he attended school and they got married later in kansas, her home state.
so, not every marriage ends in divorce of course. sometimes i feel like i relate too much to penny from big bang theory. i feel like she's the epitome of the average girl.